Owning who you are is very hard if you don’t know who you are. Our past affects our future and we are in control of the outcome. We can either choose to allow our past to be a lesson that becomes our blessings or we can allow it to hold us back to the point where we won’t progress to become the person we were meant to be. I was lost, as a woman, to who I was due to no guidance, it was hard for me to fit in. I was very likable and it seemed as if I had it all together, but deep down inside, I felt as if I had no purpose and I didn’t belong.
Another thing that hinders us is that we spend so much time thinking about other people’s perception of us to the point where we lose our self and become unrecognizable. I had the pleasure of talking to a friend about the person she would like to be and who she was at that moment. She had a breakthrough when she realized that it’s hard to own who you truly are and walk with your head up high.
I would like to introduce Katrina Pellington In this week’s blog as she shares her story about Owning Who You Are:
People’s perception of me has always had an impact on my views and how I deal with most situations. I am a very strong woman but can be naive at times. As a result, I was not pleased and in-turn I was changing my thoughts/views to accommodate their input in my life.
Through these struggles, I had to take a stance and figure out who I was and what’s my purpose in life. The thought of finding me became a struggle. It was almost like I was alone in this world trying to figure out if I even belong. It was difficult to break the cycle of trying not to depend on or listening to people’s opinions. It was a battle because I was immune to it.
During this trying period of finding myself and my purpose, I lost a loved one. Someone who was very close to my heart and it took me a long time to accept the fact that he was gone. I suppressed my feelings because I thought that I needed to be strong for my family. I didn’t entrust my feelings to anyone and as a result, I felt alone and became withdrawn. One day a family member approached me and said: “I know that you are worried, but please let worry, worry for itself!” I looked at him in disbelief; it didn’t make sense to me at the time and I thought that he was being so insensitive and inconsiderate about my feelings.
I pondered these words for a while and it eventually made sense. Why worry about things that I can’t change? I’m not in control of my life, God is and I need to let go and let God. I got up that faithful morning, got dressed, looked in the mirror and I screamed: “ENOUGH!” With tears rolling down my face, I decided that I will take control of who I was and owned it. I knew what my purpose in life was but was too afraid and this was the moment that my life changed. I enrolled in college and progressed well. I made The Dean’s list and was given the opportunity to receive my diploma with my two children by my side. “I did it!”
I finally owned who I was and strived to achieve my goals. It was evident that I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me. I was ready to take on the world. I didn’t allow the many job rejections and loss of friendships to get me down, I was determined for greatness! I told myself that I was beautiful, successful, and intelligent and that I have a voice that needs to be heard. I will aim high because I am limitless and I stood on these words because, in this society, it is so easy to get lost in the cares of the world, not shine and be the person that God wants us to be.
Owning who you are can be difficult, but it’s a great feeling to know who you are. It takes strong determination and will power to accept you and own you for all your imperfections. It gives confidence, peace of mind, happiness, comfort and the list goes on.